I'm Susan, and I'm a former fundamentalist. Now I like helping people escape and recover from fundamentalism. (I like a few other things too, of course.)

That's me as a kid in the '70s over there, in the pink dress. Remind me to tell you about my mom's spectacular fur hat someday. 

I grew up an earnest evangelical Christian in American’s heartland, wanting nothing more than to please Jesus.

It took me awhile, but I un-converted myself. Like, all the way. You might say that I lost my religion but found my soul.

Here on my website, you'll find more about my un-conversion, including tips and resources. You can read more about my story, see a list of books that helped me change my mind or get started with some merit badges or an un-conversion map. Thanks for being here. 

Your Guide to Leaving Fundamentalism

Finally, the board-game-style guide you’ve been waiting for! Escaping fundamentalism is one of the world’s trickiest psychological feats, and sometimes it helps to see a path out. Here's a map.

My Un-conversion Story

In which I was lost but thought found, then found but feared lost. How I went from an earnest evangelical fundamentalist Christian in America's heartland to un-converting myself ... like, all the way, not only changing my beliefs but the underlying patterns. 

Anatomy of a Soulful Life

As a girl, I thought my soul was a bone in my body, and I thought I knew exactly what it looked like. Most medical professionals seem fairly certain I was wrong, but the metaphor feels so right. Metaphors are the best. 

Merit Badges for Distinctive Acts of Badassery & Aplomb

Why merit badges? Because being bold takes heart, and having heart in this rough-and-tumble world isn't always easy. Surely by now you've earned a badge or two! 

Recent Essays

The pink sweater my grandmother once made me is a reminder of who I used to be.

Whether I believed the Antichrist would actually posses a ruby laser ring, I definitely believed he have lots of tricks up his sleeve.

It was sort of like home ec meets the apocalypse and included instructions about how to style our hair and how to not “usurp the role of the male.”

Recent Blog Posts

Like a butterfly out of hell

Sure, sure, I know all about bats out of hell. I’m just telling you I spent a fair amount of time in a metaphorical hell, and I found it to be a perfectly well-suited place for a transformation.

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Flower Wings: Get Some!

But what if that whole "Bloom where you're planted" thing is wrong? The flowers, wings, dark nights, dirt and dance troupes you may find along your path toward bliss.

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A Congregation of Books

A few years ago, I wrote about how I went from fundamentalist to feminist, and (praise be unto libraries) books played a major role. Here's a short reading list.

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What to Do If You've Been Duped

Starting to wonder whether something you believe is true after all? Ugh, I know how it feels. But it’s not your fault, so go ahead and change your mind!

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What Comes After Religion

A video about what draws societies to religion and what we might do with those longings now that so many us are no longer interested in church.

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Jesus* Goes to Charm School

The pink-covered workbook we studied is an entirely real thing that definitely exists on the physical plane and is still in my possession

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Sign up for the Soul Bone

Get a free "un-conversion" map when you sign up for the Soul Bone monthly letter. It's a dispatch that goes out each new moon, usually with lists and links about life after fundamentalism, sometimes also about notebooks or lip balm or metaphors.